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Kenopsia

by Project Vela

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I’m awake in a nightmare It’s haunting me Give me strength to change what I can’t accept A plea for assistance falls on deaf ears So isolated Shackled and tethered Don’t cope, don’t reach out I can’t seem to move on A ghost of myself haunting me In time, it’ll break me The weight of my grief will come crashing down Is this reality?
2.
Revealing the violence hidden up your sleeve, I sit in the silence just to watch you leave A comfortable sadist only wants to be in control of their victim, and to watch them bleed (so face away) [Chorus] So face away when you’re breaking me down again Delude yourself to think your demons are your friends You’re destroying my soul again Delude yourself to think you’re happy in the end Concealing the cries that you don’t want to hear, a plea for assistance falls on deaf ears Annihilative demons want you to lead a life in denial in the world they made [Chorus] You can’t decide what’s in your head, you will not overcome You can’t defend from hopelessness, you will be overrun… So run You can’t decide what will live inside of your head, you will not overcome. [Chorus]
3.
Live Forever 03:40
Will you smile through the pain, frozen by shadows that await? We weave the patterns of our ways to be blindsided by the pace decreasing number of our days. Go numb, my mind is empty. [Chorus] This wound is mine to cauterize. I feel in time it’ll break me I live my life believing if love could keep you alive you would’ve lived forever. You would’ve lived forever. I was breaking my back so you could feel the same I was hoping and praying that we could share the pain you had been going through. I tried everything. I wasn’t ready. I couldn’t let you go. We weave the patterns of our ways to be blindsided by the pace Decreasing number of our days. Go numb, my mind is empty. [Chorus x 2]
4.
[Chorus] I’m gonna fall. I’m gonna let you down. I’ll lose it all. I’m tired of reaching out for somebody else other than me. I’m gonna let you down, I’m gonna watch you leave. I’m awake in a nightmare, paralyzed by a constant fear. I’ve been waiting for so long to tell you…I’ve been waiting for so long to let you know I’ve let this go. [Chorus] Prototypical moment - it’s so visceral and surreal. I’ve been waiting for so long to fail you. I’ve been waiting for so long to let you know I can’t let go. [Chorus] Have to make an attempt to see through colors spinning around inside your head. I started making amends that lead to clarity of seeing red. [Chorus]
5.
There’s a muted plea inside my mind to influence me to take back my life. Give me strength to change what I can’t accept. Distant memories clinging to the edge. There is no warrant to grant me strength. I am the on who holds the pain. [Chorus] I’m running away, I’m running away from anything I thought I was before. Go through every day, go through every day regretting that I never made the time I needed to take in everything and feel the calm within the storm. Lay waste to the seeds of a desperate hope, watch what I believe go up in smoke Helping me forget what I should recall. Distant memories screaming through the fall. There is no warrant to grant me strength. I am the one who holds the pain. [Chorus x 2]
6.
Sitting here alone I am seeing just a ghost of myself (of myself) Living as a shell I start feeling like I’ve lost someone else (someone else) [Chorus] You had me tearing down my walls for you. I’m finally breaking through all the destruction you left behind. I built a fortress the mess you made. I learned to love the hate that was so prevalent in my life (in my life) Burning in my own prison, I can’t escape. I know it hurts like hell (hurts like hell) No escape I know I am trapped until this hell starts to freeze. [Chorus] You had no right to slowly tear me apart piece by piece. The remnant left is only a ghost of myself haunting me (haunting me) [Chorus]
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I close my eyes as you decompress. A look of anguish I can’t forget. I tried to save you, but there’s nothing left. I died inside the landslide of your lies. So take a breath. [Chorus] Oh you can fight this, you’re hanging on by a thread. Don’t feed the dark that’s taking over. Have you decided the demons aren’t in your head? Don’t feed the dark that’s taking over you. It’s inexplicable, it’s haunting me, to watch the light inside you disappear. Relinquish everything from what you see, ‘cause it’s what you see that I can’t believe. [Chorus] Don’t let the darkness take over. Don’t let the darkness take over. Don’t let the darkness take over. Don’t let the darkness take over you. [Chorus] (don’t let the darkness take over, don’t feed the dark) That’s taking over you (don’t let the darkness take over, don’t feed the dark). It’s taking over.
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I’m keeping watch as far as the eye can see There’s warnings to heed, machines that you feed eventually. Waiting for the moment, shaking hands with the unseen One way conversation, what I wanted it to mean [Chorus] So just be careful how you pull at the strings or everything will come crashing down I feel the thread of life is unraveling and everything has come crashing down around you now Guided misdirection to befriending a machine Listless imperfections would spell hopelessness to me [Chorus] You finally found your way when you turned the page Never feeling safe from a mortal rage Being face to face as death embraces you now I’m keeping watch as far as the eye can see [Chorus]
9.
Isolated 03:05
Suffering from this lack of conscience I will never break the silence in my head [Chorus] So isolated. Like it or not it’s not gonna stop for you So isolated. I know I’m flawed, but it’s not gonna stop for you. Dig through the ashes of another’s dream, turn a day into a memory. My body’s moving but my mind is faded. Mimic the motions, get through the day. [Chorus] For you. My body’s moving but my mind is faded. Mimic the motions, get through the day. [Chorus]
10.
If I Could 04:09
I’ve suffered long enough and felt like giving up. Abandoned my soul so deep in this hole It’s getting tough to see the hope in front of me. Grip it tight, and set it free for good. Oh if I could I’d take you everywhere, without you, life just cannot compare. Oh if I could I’d take you everywhere, without you, life just cannot compare. Oh if I could, if I could… I can’t seem to move on and accept that you were wronged. Betrayed by your god without a just cause. I’ll take it up with any other entity to take it back and let you breathe again. Oh if I could I’d take you everywhere, without you, life just cannot compare. Oh if I could I’d shoulder all the pain. This life you lived will not be in vain. Oh if I could, if I could. You disappeared in front of me, so why can’t they see that I’m not invincible. I am not invincible. Oh I’m choking on the empathy expected of me but I’m not invincible. I am not invincible. If I could I’d take you everywhere. Without you, life cannot compare. Oh if I could I’d shoulder all the pain. This life you lead will not be in vain. Oh if I could I’d gladly sacrifice myself for you and trade you my life. Oh if I could I’d do it all again, even though I know how it ends. Oh if I could, then I would.
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Rise Again 03:15
Helpless endeavor (give up, give in now) Shackled and tethered (don’t cope, don’t reach out) Caught up in the ways, stuck in a cage. Been twisted and maimed. Try to escape before I break [Chorus] We’re battered and weakened, nearly defeated We’ve taken our beatings so we can rise again. It’s getting dim, the dusk approaches, and we’re losing hope (we’re losing hope) It’s sinking in, we’re branded by the lies we’re told. Lies we’re told. Struggles and failures, enduring abuse A permanent reminder that we can’t take it back. [Chorus] Caught up in the ways, stuck in a cage Been twisted and maimed Try to escape before I break [Chorus]
12.
Buried 04:41
I’ve been to hell and I’m not back yet. There’s things I’ve felt I can’t forget. I feel them grip around my neck (it’s getting tighter, oh it’s getting tighter tighter) It’s getting tighter, oh it’s getting tight around me. And breathing’s harder. Breathing’s getting harder when the lights go out, the lights go out on me. (just so you know, oh just so you know) [Chorus] That the hole I’m digging now is too deep, it’s too deep And I’m never climbing out. I’m too weak, too weak. And I’ll be buried, I’ll be buried underneath I’ll be buried, I’ll be buried underneath the weight of my grief I have those tears that burn my skin. I’m giving up on getting fixed. I’m suffocating from within (it’s getting harder, oh it’s getting harder harder) It’s getting harder, oh it’s getting harder to see. I’m fading farther, oh I’m fading farther when the lights go out, the lights go out on me (just so you know, oh just so you know) [Chorus] I’ve torn my heart right off my sleeve (I will not let you find me) I will be buried underneath (I will not let you find me) I will not let you find me [Chorus]
13.
Reality 03:26
[Chorus] Is this reality? ‘Cause it’s so fucked up it’s gotta be nothing more than a terrifying dream. Your breath is short, life is fleeting. I’m not ready for mine to take on a different meaning. Discretion of death—indiscriminate and capricious, like saying fuck it, let’s give a vicious pull at the strings of a puppet that looks and acts and sounds like me, ‘cause I’m the creator, the actor, the animator. When everything in life gets harder, we’ll both suffer the fate of a stone dropped in water. [Chorus] Crafting a persona, putting on a new face. I’m taking back control of this inanimate case of something that used to smile, something that used to laugh, obsessed with a reality that I can’t go back Down the hatch goes all the pain that ends up stuck in my throat. I want to push my fingers down inside to make me throw up all the hurt, up all the doubt, You know it’s gotta come out. But the way we live this life is in pain. [Chorus] Vibrant in an instant, ghost adjacent the next. A photo captures life but ignores death’s effects. A spark in the eyes, a gleam in the smile, makes it seem like life might be normal for a while, but it’s not. The norm is now a fight and a struggle hidden behind a slight joke. It’s a juggling act between now and eventual like playing in the rain and the sun hits a puddle—it evaporates and dissipates. Turns out this life is nothing great without you. Everything ripped away It’s harder every day There’s nothing left to say I need you with me Is this reality?

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'Kenopsia' is the first full length album from Project Vela. Fueled by experiences like death, loss, depression, grief, change, and dependency, 'Kenopsia' is a hell of a ride, full of raw emotion and pure catharsis. This record is honest, yet polished. Hopefully you'll like getting a glimpse into the souls of Project Vela.

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released October 11, 2019

Project Vela is Scott Spriggs and Travis Owen
All music and lyrics by Project Vela
Produced by Project Vela
Recorded and mixed by Scott Spriggs
Mastered by Mike Kalajian at Rogue Planet Mastering
Album cover by Andrew Stephens
Photography by Danielle Beth Uhl
Cello by Corey Bautista

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Project Vela Denver, Colorado

By combining elements of Future Bass and Indie Pop with Hard Rock and Post Hardcore, the duo has created a sound all their own, and fans have taken notice.

Project Vela is working on a 6 song EP to show their new sonic direction. But even as the music evolves, the core message remains the same: this is music you can connect to. More than music, this is a heavy, melodic catharsis.
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